maapkn syg....tu je syg nk ckp....tp syg agak brat ckit nk maapkn n trme b mcm biase wlupn dlm aty hanya Allah yg tau mcm ne rindu kt b...tp ble trpk lek pe yg b wat, syg lupe rndu tu...prasaan mrh tu xleh kawal..syg kn tgh skit skg...mcm yg b tau sjak akhir2 ni mcm2 skit yg dtg kt syg...demam la, dgn proid lg + snggut la pastu skit gg plak..
ble kene cbut gg pnye la skit..cbe b pk bile doc tu nk cbut gg n mse tu gak bius dh abs lg la skit...doc tu plak dgn sekuat aty nk cbut gg syg coz doc ckp gg n akar gg dh reput tu yg ssh skit nk cbut...kalu gg ni dh goyang mmg snang cbut...gg tu plak stil kuat lg kt gusi ni tu yg doc tu kene koyakkn gusi skit tok cbut akar die....perhhh mmg skit coz rsenye mse tu bius dh abis..smpai syg ngis tau...doc tu suh relax....adui cm ne nk relax b mse tu bius dh abis nk die stil dgn sekuat aty nk sgtcbut gg ni...Ya Allah skitnye...ble ade bius pn skit ni ble xde buis lg...wooo skit die...ble doc tu tgok syg mcm dh x tahah n ngis bwu tu doc tu tnye skit ke?? syg trus angguk je..nk ckp xleh...bwu la die bg bius...pas tu die trus smbg lek nk cbut gg...pd hal bius lum rse lg..than je la...x lme tu bwu bius trase...krg la skit...pastu kejap je akar gg trcbut sbb syg relax je mse die try cbut...x skit sgt...adui xleh byngkn skit ble bius dh abis...smpi skg stil trse mcm ne die blah gusi tu...aduyai sbr je la...
skg ni gusi tgah bngkak n skit sgt2...mayb sbb die x bg ubat...juz bg ubat thn skit je...mne ckupkn...sptutnye byk ubt kene mkn...doc tu awl2 dh pesan kene mkn ubt smpai abis..ade ubt antibiotik, thn skit, ubt bngkak n pe tah lg....tp ubt2 tu x dpt myb tu yg jd truk ni....lg2 gusi bngkak ni....mmg bsr kot...kalu mkn ubt tu myb x truk cm ni...urm xpela dgaan lg...sbr je la...Allah nk uji aku dgn skit ni...myb ade hikmah...b x rse pe yg syg rse...skit ni cm ne..ble nk mkn pn nk kene pk 2 kali...nk x nk kene mkn gak...mse mkn msti brair2 mate ni menahan skit...kdg2 tu syg sngup x mkn...dh lpr sgt bwu mkn...mum air pn skit gak...bayang kan la b...YaAllah bsr snguh dgaan Mu ini...
smlm plak tlnga ni skit sgt...brdnyut2 gegndng tlinge ni...skit sgt b...x tau npe...ni pn tgh skit g...kdg2 x dgr sgt..ble ckp pn jd len je rse...arap2 xde pape n kjp je skit....ckup la keskitan gusi ni...tu pn trsekse...nk mkn, nk mnum, nk ckp, nk bkak mlut, nk gsk gg, nk kumur2 sume skit yg tramat...kdg2 nk brnafas gne mlut pn payah coz skit..trpkse la gune hidung...ni plak selseme truk lg...slalu trsumbat...mcm ne nk brnfs kn...dgn batuk lg...ble btuk tkak mmg skit...mkn ubt pn x elok2 g....sbr la lg....
lg skali syg nk mntk map kalu syg slh...wat b kesunyian n kesowng...bkn niat syg....syg x leh kawal prasaan syg wat mse ni...myb sume ni hlng ble xde lg kesakitan yg syg alami skg ni....skg syg perlu b tok kekuatn syg nk than skit2 ni...yg pasal aritu mmg syg trase + mrh + kcewe + sedih ble syg tgah skit2 n prlukn b tp b xde...b sdp je tido...tp syg tgah menahan sgale skit ni...b xphm prasaan syg....syg ni pmpuan....prlu seseorg nk kngsi prasaan ni lg2 tgah skit mcm ni...tp ble b bgn nk dkt kul 5 smpi b xtau syg tgah skit n prlukn b tu yg syg sedih n mrh sgt2...mmg mood xde mse tu.....ble b dh bgn n b msg then ckp b dh bgun trus mrh tu xleh kwl lg...tp ble b bg alasn PENAT mmg xleh syg xleh trime...owg len xde la mcm ni kalu mmg pnt skali pn...ade tu yg x tdo lngsng....tol kn ckp syg ni...b leh ubah prngai tu to kebekkn b....im so sory....i luf u so much...ksih syg ni xkn pudar wlupn ape pn yg b wat kt syg ni..wlupn cnta ni sakit skali pn tp syg sngup trime wlupn perit nk telan...4 u xpe b...
urmm yg pasal mlm td tu xde spe pn yg kol syg sbanenye....syg sje kol membe2 syg coz xnk b kol lg...tp sume dh tido....so nk xnk kene pick up ur kol gak....pmpuan k....jgn la rsau....syg lum nk jht lek nk wat bnde2 yg b xske....syg arap b x mrh syg k...i luf u...tq sudi bce.. salam :)
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